Author: WhiteWitch
•20:34
I woke up this morning with an internal lightness that surprised me. It made me feel so happy. It was as though a burden had been lifted from me and I didn't notice until that moment in the early morning, around 5am. I said good bye to my husband who was going to work. I felt calm, nice, serene instead of anxious and grumpy.

Right now I feel tired, and slightly jittery from an over consumption of brownies. I got my period this morning. I actually look forward to my period, especially the two first day when I feel particularly magical. I didn't go to the gnostic center I usually attend on Tuesday evening because I felt I needed to stay inside and nurture myself. I'm so lucky to be able to take it easy when I need to. I'm starting to allow myself to do it more as well. Though I still carry a feeling of always needing to be a good girl and do things. It's hard to lie down and do nothing.

I hope I can stop eating so much processed sugar. My head hurts. Instead I want to eat rose honey. Lots and lots of rose honey to open my heart to sweet pink love.

I've been working with both wild rose and mugwort. They are my closest plant allies right now. It feels like rose teaches me about self love and open volnurability. While mugwort teaches me about sensing, being intuitive and tapping into the magic that is already part of me. It's a silver, glittery, magical moon-herb.
Author: WhiteWitch
•12:18
I'm working on listening, on fine tuning my senses. Today I got up early to do various little tasks. I love being up early because everything feels so much more silent, and poetic. It also feels like I have a lot more time in a day when I start it early. Most of the time though I'm unable to leave the comfort of my bed before 9 or 10 am.

I've made yogurt and bread. It feels very nurishing and comforting to make my own food. I'm also hoping to spend some time with wild rose tomorrow. I visited her last Wednesday. I found her growing closish to a friends house, and close to the train station. I made rose petal honey, and I spent time listening to her. It feels that if I'm able to leave the chaos of my mind and emotions and listen on a much deeper lever, with my heart, then I can hear her speak to me. I can't even put into words what she said, but it was very profound to me. The heart knows and understand things that is far beyond the mind and words.


I want to update this blog more often, but I find it difficult to sit down and write something without feeling disappointed in what I'm writing. I suppose I want it to sounds better than it does, or I feel something deeply but when I put it into words it loses some of its beauty and value.

Oh well. Perhaps I'm just still sleepy. I think I might take a nap..